Thanks

Thanks for the memory's
you were a blast
Thanks for the chemistry
That never did last

Thanks for the laughs
you brightened my soul
Thanks for talking  when i lost control

Thanks for the fun
and all of the games
for calling me Hun
instead of my name

Thanks for the hugs
i sometimes received
for squeezing me tight till i couldn't breath

thanks for the support
thanks for the time
now were never court 
your never be mine

The Close

The end of a chapter the close of a book
No going back no final look

under the carpet covered in dust
hidden forever my angry lust

In the beginning back at the start
I never though this would brake my heart

How can you miss what never began
its impossible but somehow I can

confused to the point that ive lost my mind
I need to run leave this all behind

For you love another very different from me
No matter how I change I will never be ...

I don’t even want what most people do
I just long to be close to you

I don’t want to act like couples or lovers
spending the days/ hours under bed covers

Its deeper then that (for me anyway)
so forever and ever in my heart your stay

I shall leave you alone by your self not with me
Just friends being friends no intimacy

I’m happy with that, that’s how it is
my life’s now real and less of a quiz. 

DEEP UNDERGROUND POETRY

http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/

Above is a link for deep underground poetry website this is such a great site for poetry !

fingers crossed

I hope that all drunk people get memory loss from the previous evening that would help me out alot

I like it

I like the thrill of being scared
it makes me feel alive

ill do anythink im dared
this  is how i  strive

back again

Just when i start to forget
I hear from you again

Just like a love sick pet
you take over my brain

i spend my evenings hoping ,
wishing all in vain ,
that one day in the future you will call my name,

Ive felt this pain for a long time
my heart knows only this

I feel like I'm committing a crime
longing for just one kiss

should i drowned all of my sorrows
or bow my head in shame
sometimes i am angry at you
but your not the one to blame

I wish i could find another you
someone to fill this gap
I'm not sure of anyone who
would put up with all my crap

my friends think that I'm crazy
when they hear me rant away
your minds a little hazy
your thoughts they seem to stray

fighting a losing  battle
that was never mine to win
I need to put up my  defences
and never let you in

i should want to get better
and never feel this way
but Ive  felt like this for so long now
I'm scared id miss the pain.

mums birthday yesterday !

So i had monday off yay !

it was my mums birthday so we we went to see a film called one day i really related to this film in so many ways

Ive noticed that i use to be a hipercondriact and i was really afraid of dying all the time not i just dont care i wonder whats going on with that ?

is it a good thing ?

fuck knows !

I dont keep a mirror on my wall
I dont keep a photo on my shelf
Even though i walk on tall
I do not really like myself

Its photographs i really hate
One fatal click and its too late
brodcasted to a hundred friends
the embarresment just never ends

no matter what my parents say
these faults will never go away

when i get ready of a night
my friends will say you look alright
when really i can plainly see
there just being nice to me

be happy just the way you are
thats easyer siad then done

im happy till i see  photographs
they stop me having fun !

feeling low

It seems like everythings happening for everyone else im really worried that i am being left behind :(